100 day challenges have really changed my life

I'm sitting in my office and knowing that it is way too long that I have been writing my blog. I keep reasoning that it is because I am busy, but really it is not that. Since my last post there has been amazing development of basicly everything in my life. My working life has taken such leaps, that while it has been a glorious ride, I haven't had much chance to stop and think about it. Once promised myself, that would not write just for the heck of it, wanted to have something to actually say. Happy to report. Today I have. - Something to say that is. :)

It has been over two years since I found Lilou, Sandy and Laura from CCOR page on the internet. Secret was just out, and the three fabulous, shining, juicy ladies were just captivating in everything they did. I jumped in. What I found was a secret formula, that I didn't even know to dream about. An in addition I got many really good friends, friends that I keep in touch on regular basis and I know when visiting the area they live, I will be meeting them in person.

I started to realize that my life is what I make of it. First seasons I did were a struggle, I got good results, but at times I was getting my head around the negative and could not let go. By third season it suddenly dawned on me. It is me that brings the attention to the unwanted. It is all me. When something happened that threw me off, I started to share it over and over and over. 10 of my best friends would hear about it, people I randomly met would hear about it. I would write about it, tell my mom, ponder it over. No wonder it followed me. It was as if dwelling in those thoughts somehow served me and I somehow became deeper person, by acknowledging the crappy things.

Little did I know that it was quite the opposite. Third season was the moment of breakdown - and a break through. Had the breakdown first and was forced to let go. Immediately after that came the break through. The moment that I realized that the key was letting go, looking for something else, than the crappy stuff, relief came instantly. And I could feel it right away.

My thought patterns started to break, and I was smashing down some glass ceilings I had created for myself. I began feeling worthy. Worthy of all the good, beautiful and loving in life. Love in my life increased. My dreams got bigger, I started to feel better. Light started to shine in me, and I started to become me -the real me. This sounds so big and grand, and believe me, It was. I was shedding off the shame I had carried with me all the years and I started to proudly declare who I am and what is it that I want. I stopped being afraid what other people are saying or thinking of me. I just started to go to the direction I wanted.

Now I have the direction, allthough I'll be correcting it all the time, because my dreams get bigger by the minute, and I'm aming higher and higher all the time. Things that I could not even know to dream few years ago manifested to reality already, and things that I even did not know could be dreamed are within my reach.

Friend just posted this on the Facebook, thought that I'll put it here too, because it is so right.

"Our lives are not determined by what happens to us but by how we react to what happens, not by what life brings to us, but by the attitude we bring to life. A positive attitude causes a chain reaction of positive thoughts, events, and outcomes. It is a catalyst, a spark that creates extraordinary results."-Anon

Please leave a comment and let me know, what has been the thing that has effected to your path the most.

Lets create life beautiful!

In love and light,
Martta -aka Mari Uusitalo,
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