Life´s master plan

It has been few days now without me posting anything on my blog. I went on our island last weekend and took a notebook with me. We were there the whole family. Everyone was just so thrilled to be there and everyone was doing their favorite things so I had a chance to do mine. I sat on a pier by myself and wrote.

Sun was shining and it was steaming hot. The weather was very humid and a slight cool breeze was making it all better as I sat there and listened the waves and the birds and the little humming sound coming from the trees around me. All this was surrounding me and I was so happy to be there. We have been there only once this summer, because of the house building and I was already longing for the feelings I feel at our cottage: ease, rest, peace and quiet. I also brought my camera with me, so I could take some pictures for my future blogs as well. It is funny how I never get tired of the views there. And how different they look every time. Someone may think that ok, she has those same pictures again and again. Somehow I never get tired of filming that. Just like my mom. She also keeps taking the pictures from the same place all the time. And yet the pictures are always different.

As I was writing one my blogs it sort of accured to me that maybe it is time for me to write my own life strategies. There are many things I want to do, and many things that pull me different directions. I have to get the feel for what is it that I really want. Maybe I should start planning it more carefully.

So there I was sitting on a pier and writing my notebook. First I started just randomly add areas of my life that need focus and direction. Then I add to the list all of those key areas that I thought should be included. Then I put them in order. I prioritized them by the importance to me. This was a hard thing to do. So many conflicts of value, but anyway I got it done, and was rather pleased with what I had just done. Then I wrote a description of my life as I see it in future, say 5 to 7 years from now. I just let the flow of writing to take me anywhere and the scenario started to look really amazing. It soon came to me, that I want it all. I was not going to settle for nothing less. I kept going.
I wrote important questions down. Then every key area got three major goals and achievements. Made guidelines, added some indicators when the goal was reached and made a timeline. This got me thinking even harder. No doubt I was doing the right thing. This should help me get my act together and I should get me doing the right things. I was really excited, excited about me. Yet, something was nagging me. The thing that kept me puzzled was that eventhough I have all this knowlede and insight about me and my life, I didn´t know much of others. I had no idea what my children dream about. I didn´t know what my husbands great goals are. For heavens sake, I know my zaadzter-friends goals far better than my husband´s. Something is not right.

We can be masters in planning our own lives and make great plans for ourselves, as I did. Maybe it was the most important writing session I have had for a long time, but the real teaching in this experience was that we should get into the hearts of the people we love. We should find out what is their greatest dream. What do they wish for, what are their goals and how I can take part in making their dreams come true.

So this is it: My goal is to find out what my loved ones dream about and help them make their dreams come true.